又一个去世，两个月？一个月一次？是不是就要轮到我家人了？很接近哦！亲戚越来越接近！为什么都是我要那早遇到，如果生我早几年可能没有那么辛苦，那么痛心，那么悲哀，你知道吗，我爸看都不敢看棺了，死的人都是大概的年龄。。。怎么看得下。。。请赐我毅力和耐力与坚持！
简单提醒-避免后遗症之先开一口
面子书刚开始一年，就有无限纠纷在comment斗来斗去，发现都是些不能面对对方，不能用于去开口的接触去面对纠纷的-电脑家。我也不例外，我需要成熟解决问题，不能靠facebook骂人。不然就太依赖了，搞得我出去外面一点也学不会沟通。地球上的人类越来越假，还是越来越真？我还不知道。第一个当你是敌人的人都会很关注你的。最了解你的敌人或许就是你的朋友！至少当它要关注你时，是真心的！一字不漏！哈哈
我的纠纷，是没有问题的。我从来就没有当人家是敌人， 偶尔只会有些误会纠纷，或是大家都在成长中环境中所遇到的问题，自造出不同的思维，性格，宽容。最后大家还是会走在一起，做同样东西。
如果你在一无形中得罪您的朋友，公友，室友。。或是说错话？你的对面那位会因此恨你，不明白，尝试反驳？facebook 电脑家又在发作了！双方面因该如何呢？
请离开电脑
尝试以老套的方法
打电话？约个地方？谈谈？ 。。。。 废话，有谁不知道！靠！
谈话时，请不要怕对方是否介意你说的字眼，因为你们已经彼此得罪过大家，请收听者大胆开放接受一切讯息，在三思的情况下以成熟的面对，悔改，并完整沟通全部提给你的方案。还需要勇气！！我知道很少人可以那么pure hearted 去做到这些。做到的我也很想问下他们什么才是最棒的方法，因为我曾经就如此擦过，就因为我忘记涂润滑油！！真感叹！导致如此地步。如果双方面都做不到这些，那做好你的本分吧。。。始终人是有脑的，对它重不重要，维持不维持，它会懂的。至少，你做过丑人，有人敢做丑人吗？会有几个？你是勇与面对现实的好榜样！文人意见也不错，不过不要中邪，不然也会影响你的决定，也是要成熟对待。要怎么成熟？我不会啦，只好从生活上提升思维，看什么？我不看书的，我懒！我会再尝试的。。。
我有一些特别的提示：-相信不会有人察觉到，因为你不看的！哈哈
为什么要读历史？历史可以提升你的思维，好几万倍！！当然好像马来西亚的历史是cibai的。不需要去看。要看就看，france,china sun yat sen start,古代的看不上，太久了，要看些比较适合我们的时代，至少要从发明枪的那个时代开始, russia Communist start, Germany, ww2 可以教你爱国，好看过malaysia的hangtuah故事。不过眼看现在的趋势，那么多种族，是很难的，人家爱国的都是单一种族，所以看了战争片会很感人肺腑。
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现在那么追求潮流与追星的生活里，你还没找回自己。因为你也是和平常人一样，做同样的东西，试想想，你做的东西人家也是在做吗，还是你正在为未来铺路？那是浪费时间了。。。我正在更改修正我自己！你doom了吗？请找回你小学写过的志愿吧，说不定那单纯的思想就是你的未来，可你给忘了！！向rocket迈向前进！同志们。。。
-=欢迎一切讨论批评=-
Sunday, December 18, 2011
Monday, December 12, 2011
The coming future...
人是很奇怪的动物，每个人都是独立个体， 但是又会互相影响， 然后再不知不觉中成长，改变，成长，再改变.但是每个人改变的方向都不同， 走的路也不一样， 有人会选择积极向上发奋图强，有人会选择开开心心马马虎虎就行.以前熟悉的好朋友， 到了今天， 会变成你曾经熟悉的陌生人， 人会变，整个世界正在改变，但是难道要接受人会改变 就不再去执着他原本是一个怎样的人，如果连我们都放弃去坚持去关心，那我们将来怎样对下一代说怎么样去面对这个每一秒都在改变的世界？人是很奇怪，始终也是无可奈何地去接受改变这个事实....
Friday, November 11, 2011
TIME la... sien ppl. say change then change, never follow your feel, it sux! for boys
For TheBoys - Talk TheBoys only
1. use feeling u confirm gg.com, 尤其是现在准备踏入社会tat type
2. fren = ur future.. pls 珍惜，respect， your fren. they might help u in future u dont know, wife also 靠你了，那你靠谁？如果你已经100%做好了自己？那就是朋友！friend。。。。
3. 男人要有信念，bo信念equal gg.com..信念不是安全感，而是东风不败的精神，玩安全感和不能原谅别人+不主动去挽回=gg.com
4.friend不是过两年就撒，尤其是跟你长大的那些，更加需要珍惜，体谅，接受，维护。兄弟不是你想象中那么简单。tat kind of brother heart not normal ppl said "brother ma" can understand, 我自称我觉得我和最要好地兄弟过不了social revolution,but 我不会放弃我慢慢develop的law. 我是想很多，我相信，我可以靠我和脑子里的另一个我正在讨论和更新所有一切论点。
5.可能做工的有很多种，example
type A very hate
type B very like
tybe C very boring
type A very hate, i tel u hor. hate 挽 hate， 还有利用价值的hor.. 更要好好去绑他，有时候，偏偏就是这些人给你找makan。绑到真的confirm没有价值还可以稍微轻松下，久久见一次。social ma... FUCK
type B very like, 不要依靠他太多，他给你很多好处，but有可能会害死你。或啦你下水。。这些like挽like,动下可以了。。social ma... FUCK
type C very boring,怎天给你talk shit,talk jesus, 我忍。。忍够，晚上放工去打泰拳～
extra..
你要来我家做客我也只好放了吧。。是你选择的。我也要做我的选择了。我看还是直接找老婆算了～～
1. use feeling u confirm gg.com, 尤其是现在准备踏入社会tat type
2. fren = ur future.. pls 珍惜，respect， your fren. they might help u in future u dont know, wife also 靠你了，那你靠谁？如果你已经100%做好了自己？那就是朋友！friend。。。。
3. 男人要有信念，bo信念equal gg.com..信念不是安全感，而是东风不败的精神，玩安全感和不能原谅别人+不主动去挽回=gg.com
4.friend不是过两年就撒，尤其是跟你长大的那些，更加需要珍惜，体谅，接受，维护。兄弟不是你想象中那么简单。tat kind of brother heart not normal ppl said "brother ma" can understand, 我自称我觉得我和最要好地兄弟过不了social revolution,but 我不会放弃我慢慢develop的law. 我是想很多，我相信，我可以靠我和脑子里的另一个我正在讨论和更新所有一切论点。
5.可能做工的有很多种，example
type A very hate
type B very like
tybe C very boring
type A very hate, i tel u hor. hate 挽 hate， 还有利用价值的hor.. 更要好好去绑他，有时候，偏偏就是这些人给你找makan。绑到真的confirm没有价值还可以稍微轻松下，久久见一次。social ma... FUCK
type B very like, 不要依靠他太多，他给你很多好处，but有可能会害死你。或啦你下水。。这些like挽like,动下可以了。。social ma... FUCK
type C very boring,怎天给你talk shit,talk jesus, 我忍。。忍够，晚上放工去打泰拳～
extra..
你要来我家做客我也只好放了吧。。是你选择的。我也要做我的选择了。我看还是直接找老婆算了～～
Friday, October 21, 2011
haiz...
男人，你会为女人烦恼。
你会对男人也烦恼吗？我又不是gay的。。
我没有女人我会死的，我跟你讲
不懂是不是以来太多电脑，变到判断能力和沟通能力衰退。跟女子讲话，真的不是我要讲什么就讲什么，要想想看这句到底会有什么后果？什么回复？或许是障碍？我觉的我那套沟通方法已经out了，中学还好我有样子可以依靠一下。不然就gg.com
现在college先不要讲脸，单单我的语气和句子已经被人感到很没有安全感，我觉得。
我很想改，我这的在该，就好象一间公司几十年了，一定要转型，不然会被社会淘汰。
我真在努力，只是有点真的想不出方法。。。。很难做，要问谁？是不是男人都不因该去问人的？要自己去研究？我真的不明白，我找不到我要的方案
我也知道我的种种问题，就是不知道要怎么解决。。好无助，男人无助的时候要怎样？还是我需要动力？什么动力？
其实我真的是百分百好男人，就找不到机会去被人知道。坏男人可以骗吃，好男人要骗吃都难，所以女人不喜欢？因该是说女人喜欢甜言蜜语的男生。
A=1,2,3,4,5 B=6,7,8,9,0
A-=1,2,3 B-=6,7,8 (dunwan pick)
A+=4,5 B+=9,0 (wan to pick)
y pick 4,5,9,0 from A,B?
B used for age ending,becoz it consist 0 which represent end of life. by picking one number from both A and B doesnt reach minimum threshold for statistics, so, pick another 1 more number from both A and B, total 4 number. * if pick zero from B, mus pick 5 from A, since they are both the last digit that suitable for comparison.
another example, if wan to pick all of the numbers, the arrangement should be [1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,0], but column doesnt exist, if will produce more accurate and smaller gap between age. results are same.
A*B=[4,5,9,0]row*[-1,-2,-3,-7,-8]column=?
sin4=0.06, sin5=0.08, sin9=0.15, sin0=0
sin-1=-0.01,sin-2=-0.03, sin-3=-0.05, sin-7=-0.12,sin-8=-0.13
[0.06,0.08,0.15,0]row*[-0.01,-0.03,-0.05,-0.12,-0.13]column
『[-0.01]
[-0.03]
[0.06 0.08 0.15 0] [-0.05]
[-0.12]
[-0.13]』
4row5column
=all very small percentage of chance only=u need to spend alot of time to solve=not effective.
good + bad to neutralise, not everything can be done 100% completely, jus pick some for future.
so, taken from [0.06,0.08,0.15,0]row ignore column.
([0.06,0.08,0.15,0])^2
0.0036
0.0064
0.0225
0
**a curve graph should appear**
image a for easier for understanding
so i stil have 0.018% when 21
and until 0.021% when 30
peak is 0.05%
21-30 is very important since it has a close percentage for each other.
30-40 is when u have the base from p1-p2, then a little more hardworking can reach 0.05% at peak withoutany problem.
so 21-30 need to push at least 0.04% more effort to succeed.
when reach almost 40, a little 0f 0.01% added to complete the whole course!
Math doesnt mean it need theory to build logical. Math also =can used to create new equation for target and future.
conclusion, my 20-30 mus very very hardworking for everything.
你会对男人也烦恼吗？我又不是gay的。。
我没有女人我会死的，我跟你讲
不懂是不是以来太多电脑，变到判断能力和沟通能力衰退。跟女子讲话，真的不是我要讲什么就讲什么，要想想看这句到底会有什么后果？什么回复？或许是障碍？我觉的我那套沟通方法已经out了，中学还好我有样子可以依靠一下。不然就gg.com
现在college先不要讲脸，单单我的语气和句子已经被人感到很没有安全感，我觉得。
我很想改，我这的在该，就好象一间公司几十年了，一定要转型，不然会被社会淘汰。
我真在努力，只是有点真的想不出方法。。。。很难做，要问谁？是不是男人都不因该去问人的？要自己去研究？我真的不明白，我找不到我要的方案
我也知道我的种种问题，就是不知道要怎么解决。。好无助，男人无助的时候要怎样？还是我需要动力？什么动力？
其实我真的是百分百好男人，就找不到机会去被人知道。坏男人可以骗吃，好男人要骗吃都难，所以女人不喜欢？因该是说女人喜欢甜言蜜语的男生。
A=1,2,3,4,5 B=6,7,8,9,0
A-=1,2,3 B-=6,7,8 (dunwan pick)
A+=4,5 B+=9,0 (wan to pick)
y pick 4,5,9,0 from A,B?
B used for age ending,becoz it consist 0 which represent end of life. by picking one number from both A and B doesnt reach minimum threshold for statistics, so, pick another 1 more number from both A and B, total 4 number. * if pick zero from B, mus pick 5 from A, since they are both the last digit that suitable for comparison.
another example, if wan to pick all of the numbers, the arrangement should be [1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,0], but column doesnt exist, if will produce more accurate and smaller gap between age. results are same.
A*B=[4,5,9,0]row*[-1,-2,-3,-7,-8]column=?
sin4=0.06, sin5=0.08, sin9=0.15, sin0=0
sin-1=-0.01,sin-2=-0.03, sin-3=-0.05, sin-7=-0.12,sin-8=-0.13
[0.06,0.08,0.15,0]row*[-0.01,-0.03,-0.05,-0.12,-0.13]column
『[-0.01]
[-0.03]
[0.06 0.08 0.15 0] [-0.05]
[-0.12]
[-0.13]』
4row5column
=all very small percentage of chance only=u need to spend alot of time to solve=not effective.
good + bad to neutralise, not everything can be done 100% completely, jus pick some for future.
so, taken from [0.06,0.08,0.15,0]row ignore column.
([0.06,0.08,0.15,0])^2
0.0036
0.0064
0.0225
0
**a curve graph should appear**
image a for easier for understanding
so i stil have 0.018% when 21
and until 0.021% when 30
peak is 0.05%
21-30 is very important since it has a close percentage for each other.
30-40 is when u have the base from p1-p2, then a little more hardworking can reach 0.05% at peak withoutany problem.
so 21-30 need to push at least 0.04% more effort to succeed.
when reach almost 40, a little 0f 0.01% added to complete the whole course!
Math doesnt mean it need theory to build logical. Math also =can used to create new equation for target and future.
conclusion, my 20-30 mus very very hardworking for everything.
Sunday, October 9, 2011
Friday, October 7, 2011
不能没有你们（乱猜的人会误会，很大件事的，不要乱猜！！）要问我***
怎样才能把大家再聚起来呢？很没有头水。。很烦。。
我不是不要叫大家出来。。是有时候真的不知道要去哪里。
我很的空啊，为什么没叫我去？
有时候我真的不明白，到底你ok聊没有？又不可以跑去问，不然就是没有答案的。
难道你觉得我去会很扫兴？还是不够熟？没有可能！！认识那么久，很明显是没有心想到我，就算想到我，也不会问我的啦，还是给不到那种去了都很enjoy快乐的感觉？。。。给以前，想都不想我一定在list里面。。真的千算万算都没有想过会到如此地步。
有一个人，很sohai。 不懂几时开始从来就不会contact我的，我觉得我跟你简直就是不认识。。怪什么？没的怪。我讨厌的人都比你还要跟我熟。真的有够力的，我不要再找你了，我放弃！我就当你遗忘了我，几年几年都是这样的，我就当你透明的。再看咯...!!
你很够力关注的人不睬你，我在你后面关到我累！！一年又一年，你看都不看，有时候转头看下知道是我，都不理人。 这种人，不懂要怎样形容。。。。如果不是一些东西，都不会connect到你过来。一年一度的connect?我觉得要到这种地步了！！
你哦屎，我踩屎。。我抹干净！。。再给你哦屎，我踩你的屎！。。。抹了又踩，walao!! 我真的很想走另一条路，如果不是我要跟着你，我都不会踩了又踩。我想看看你未来会是怎样的，我很期待你踩屎 ！我很伟大我跟你讲！
可是我有一种预感会看到你会有蛮不错的未来，你会是一个很厉害，出名的人。。是不是哦？『预感』
我不能面对面跟你讲，你lucky!， fuck you!真想道巴道巴给你。
dia adalah besar dan kecil ..很闲啦你这种人！做么我每天遇到这种人的？
3）我的知音快来！
4）做么非诚忽扰的节目里边，全部21-25的不是ceo,就是啥啥经理，wakao...有那么恐怖，lengzai没人要！，要看你有没有ko-li才有人要！还有你的思想。看多几级非诚忽扰，真的获益不少哦，可以找到你理想和适合的另一半，两方面的需要。 可以做很多参考！不错不错！乐家老师过然是熟读人心！！
5）对，我要读多一年了。不怎么喜欢我的人一定会，HAHAHAHA。 你踩！，我忍，不要给我知道你未来under我的公司。
6)家里情况有少些进步，希望还可以撑着。。加油！
我不是不要叫大家出来。。是有时候真的不知道要去哪里。
我很的空啊，为什么没叫我去？
有时候我真的不明白，到底你ok聊没有？又不可以跑去问，不然就是没有答案的。
难道你觉得我去会很扫兴？还是不够熟？没有可能！！认识那么久，很明显是没有心想到我，就算想到我，也不会问我的啦，还是给不到那种去了都很enjoy快乐的感觉？。。。给以前，想都不想我一定在list里面。。真的千算万算都没有想过会到如此地步。
有一个人，很sohai。 不懂几时开始从来就不会contact我的，我觉得我跟你简直就是不认识。。怪什么？没的怪。我讨厌的人都比你还要跟我熟。真的有够力的，我不要再找你了，我放弃！我就当你遗忘了我，几年几年都是这样的，我就当你透明的。再看咯...!!
你很够力关注的人不睬你，我在你后面关到我累！！一年又一年，你看都不看，有时候转头看下知道是我，都不理人。 这种人，不懂要怎样形容。。。。如果不是一些东西，都不会connect到你过来。一年一度的connect?我觉得要到这种地步了！！
你哦屎，我踩屎。。我抹干净！。。再给你哦屎，我踩你的屎！。。。抹了又踩，walao!! 我真的很想走另一条路，如果不是我要跟着你，我都不会踩了又踩。我想看看你未来会是怎样的，我很期待你踩屎 ！我很伟大我跟你讲！
可是我有一种预感会看到你会有蛮不错的未来，你会是一个很厉害，出名的人。。是不是哦？『预感』
我不能面对面跟你讲，你lucky!， fuck you!真想道巴道巴给你。
dia adalah besar dan kecil ..很闲啦你这种人！做么我每天遇到这种人的？
3）我的知音快来！
4）做么非诚忽扰的节目里边，全部21-25的不是ceo,就是啥啥经理，wakao...有那么恐怖，lengzai没人要！，要看你有没有ko-li才有人要！还有你的思想。看多几级非诚忽扰，真的获益不少哦，可以找到你理想和适合的另一半，两方面的需要。 可以做很多参考！不错不错！乐家老师过然是熟读人心！！
5）对，我要读多一年了。不怎么喜欢我的人一定会，HAHAHAHA。 你踩！，我忍，不要给我知道你未来under我的公司。
6)家里情况有少些进步，希望还可以撑着。。加油！
Monday, October 3, 2011
Saturday, October 1, 2011
我讲不出口的东西1
how would i start such disappointment in the early of this midnight,
these might not look serious or should you care? for many people. But
they are exceptions for me at the mean time... i think..
how would you treat your yourself when you are officially became a responsible person for your country, at least ...you did?
by buying urself a cake? making wif your honeylemon? go play for your favourite game? celebrating surprise? or might be alone at your house? viewing virtual life of the one u like? get along wif ur enemy? what? jus go get some normal birthday celebration like others pls... give me a break- fuck social life!
scenario goes here;-
1st, i have a bunch of frens, and i just feel that its getting little by little, at least by now. no comment for future. so, i decided to group my frens in separated chart, and i found that i jus have 3 colours from my chart, the last 1 were so called "others" which means different type of frens tat really cant group together, i have alot of this, but almost zero conversation btw me n others. okay, i was trying and make sure all of my groups are all being treated fairly. and it should be long term to forever frens i guess.. but someone just trying to giv me some little technical problem almost every month, a new problem that i scratched my head till memory full. i need more rams. like all computer does. those problems never stops, maybe thinking too much? because i care, u sad i care, i care when i sad too. come'on U JUST CANT PROPERLY LEVERAGE EVERYTHING IN YOUR ENTIRE LIFE, THERE IS ALWAYS SOME HELP YOU NEED TO GET YOURSELF DONE. once again, fuck social!
now, is 21 an important age for u? ask yourself, if it is yes!, please jus let it goes naturally, since u will get more disappointment after this if you keep thinking of it. again, fuck social life!, u might get it every year, even 21st is still nothing for u. if no, u r a man!! i hope you can grant my bday wish by giving me a lecture on how to tackle no bday celebration by the one u hope but not the 1 u get. i might be the most open-speech-attitude-goes-easily in ur mind. but im not as open minded as you think, i also need to have a 21st nice bday celebration too. yea!yea!yea! not everyone have the luck to cele bday every year like u, just a year missing doesnt mean u will die. thats not the situation i wish to face, i dont think u all cant make it. anyway, it just passed for around 7days since my 24 september bday. did someone understand wat i wan? wat i wish for? trying hardly to understand my kind of attitude and the way to tackle me with a more comfort way? in the middle of any N years ago, i jus realise something i think it is easy/wise/and simple way to make everyone know wat u wan. yes i love mpv, y do i trying hard to show and point the vehicle anywhere anytime to u? and i make used of the mpv to create a small unrealistic story to 2 of my girlfrens n of coz other boy frens tat might be interested of my mpv thingy, my point? i hope i can create a topic for myself n u when we r quiet, boring... and the best place is by picking any nice place when having tea session that i knew the mpv would pass tru, so we can point it, making another short stories btw us and even taking photo for myself n the car, haha... at least we r smiling..then ill try to talk to u alot about ur things and hope to understand more everytime we hang out, and know my thingy too.. im doing sincerely, u might think i wan to know ur everything... yes i know i failed my social test, fuck u!
wat a hilarious surprise i received!, due to some problem, my class separated into 2 groups, me group and cs group accidently- jus misunderstanding, should be gone well later this, let not put tis in our heart. wat i wan to mention is, i received a hilarious surprise!!... extremely undefine for me.. i receive bday wish from cs group all, but not my group.. (my group n cs group will eventually back to a whole group sooner, i believe! i have strong faith, facebook is making relationship a mess.) is tat funny? zero wish from my group( from the way i feel), maybe theres some MEgroup wishing me tru facebook, n i forget it, n my hp is also making me losing contacts n msg randomly. another unexpected surprise was, im receiving more bday wish from "others" section which im not too concentrating on to MEgroup. becoz 21st is a very important year for me, 21 might not some special year for you, but for me it is a dif kind of life for me like 100% full punishment based on the federal law of malaysia if i did something wrong, went to casino n start my 1st lost or win bet, at least it is another world tat ned to be stepped on, no one will ever treat u and feed u totally. might jus because of my family situation, i think it was a very important year for me to CHANGE as obama said, else gonna late for bus later on... things are going fast now! not like 70s 80s already.
they bought me a present, tat i shoud be happy to receive it, but comes out to be a big disappointment.. no bday celebration? 我在帮每个人过个美好的sweet21,为什么我没有的？我不是跟ps说过了吗？为什么ps当我耳边风。。。 i hope to get a sweet 21st memories instead of gift that would dissappear sooner later. i will rather throw away the gift. AKY 不是说21很重要的吗？我一直都记得！！为什么我是那个被选中被弃哪位！！！！！！！我不明白！！我不明白！！为什么要逼我讲出来..这样人家会觉得我很 noob。。。
things goes badly in my september week, i pass my regularly failed unit, but i jus never ever imagine i could fail math6!! i kneel down, hand covering my face, tears started coming out. i cried for 15 minutes, No! another year of delay? im trying to hypnotise myself, jus a year of delay, u can work to gain experience for a year, jus pushing the work infront for 1 year earlier. its some sort of internal pressure H=u+pv, U=h-pv.. that no normal ppl can understand. my thick wall started to break apart pushing out anger, disappointment, fuck social!
i really canot cope with so many thing at once,成绩又差，还以为生日可以弥补一下我的成绩，没想到会是这样，我的生日我很高兴！！我只为自己庆祝。在家！不错一下·我姐问我21做么没有出 去？我真的不知道要怎样回答她。。。很好的礼物！！
family the biggest pressure
frens the second biggest pressure
if i were not born to here, i will not giving so much pressure and wasting many money for my family, i started to save energy, always check that only i think is well worth to buy only to buy. i started to see my frens around spending money like drinking water, even eating long chocolate bar a day, but i jus enough for a small biscuits for whole month. my awkward feel started since ps buying album like non stop and freakingly going singapore for another concert. if not my sis bought snsd album for me.. i dont think i will be having snsd poster to stick on my wall. i will think like this, insufficient money, watching from computer everyday also can. Sometimes when my pocket money is empty like couldnt survive for another outing, seriously..bank empty, ..something will jump out infront of me. thats money! not from family... maybe theres some sort of luck? or anything? giving me money to spend but its just enough for normal living. another 2 or more outing will back to starting point again~ so i would say rm50 for a month is acceptable for me.我真的很担心我有没有钱,怕你闷我才陪你去k-wave，可以顺便看看4minute，还好我赚到一点。。看到你想看到找到你要的4minute， 我也替你很高兴！
sudden WILL- more friendship problems is good for building stronger bonds btw frens and fore, i believe more argument could bring us to a better future towards strong ionic bonds by trust force. the problems is.. can we all think like this?
these post might seems to be over specified or over exaggerated by myself..
i could not express the way i like infront of everyone due to some reasons u might stop me, or telling me is not the way u think/ u think wrongly/ y would u think like tis?/r u insane?/ u finding urself too lousy or meaningless?/ u glv?/ wat is ur mind thinking?/tis ppl has too many brains to think rubbish/ he is terified/
again, fuck social!
是我的生日在wrong day 我不怪你们。。。september对我来说永远都不是好日子。我写到这些东西出来，我真的很没有脸见你们。
how would you treat your yourself when you are officially became a responsible person for your country, at least ...you did?
by buying urself a cake? making wif your honeylemon? go play for your favourite game? celebrating surprise? or might be alone at your house? viewing virtual life of the one u like? get along wif ur enemy? what? jus go get some normal birthday celebration like others pls... give me a break- fuck social life!
scenario goes here;-
1st, i have a bunch of frens, and i just feel that its getting little by little, at least by now. no comment for future. so, i decided to group my frens in separated chart, and i found that i jus have 3 colours from my chart, the last 1 were so called "others" which means different type of frens tat really cant group together, i have alot of this, but almost zero conversation btw me n others. okay, i was trying and make sure all of my groups are all being treated fairly. and it should be long term to forever frens i guess.. but someone just trying to giv me some little technical problem almost every month, a new problem that i scratched my head till memory full. i need more rams. like all computer does. those problems never stops, maybe thinking too much? because i care, u sad i care, i care when i sad too. come'on U JUST CANT PROPERLY LEVERAGE EVERYTHING IN YOUR ENTIRE LIFE, THERE IS ALWAYS SOME HELP YOU NEED TO GET YOURSELF DONE. once again, fuck social!
now, is 21 an important age for u? ask yourself, if it is yes!, please jus let it goes naturally, since u will get more disappointment after this if you keep thinking of it. again, fuck social life!, u might get it every year, even 21st is still nothing for u. if no, u r a man!! i hope you can grant my bday wish by giving me a lecture on how to tackle no bday celebration by the one u hope but not the 1 u get. i might be the most open-speech-attitude-goes-easily in ur mind. but im not as open minded as you think, i also need to have a 21st nice bday celebration too. yea!yea!yea! not everyone have the luck to cele bday every year like u, just a year missing doesnt mean u will die. thats not the situation i wish to face, i dont think u all cant make it. anyway, it just passed for around 7days since my 24 september bday. did someone understand wat i wan? wat i wish for? trying hardly to understand my kind of attitude and the way to tackle me with a more comfort way? in the middle of any N years ago, i jus realise something i think it is easy/wise/and simple way to make everyone know wat u wan. yes i love mpv, y do i trying hard to show and point the vehicle anywhere anytime to u? and i make used of the mpv to create a small unrealistic story to 2 of my girlfrens n of coz other boy frens tat might be interested of my mpv thingy, my point? i hope i can create a topic for myself n u when we r quiet, boring... and the best place is by picking any nice place when having tea session that i knew the mpv would pass tru, so we can point it, making another short stories btw us and even taking photo for myself n the car, haha... at least we r smiling..then ill try to talk to u alot about ur things and hope to understand more everytime we hang out, and know my thingy too.. im doing sincerely, u might think i wan to know ur everything... yes i know i failed my social test, fuck u!
wat a hilarious surprise i received!, due to some problem, my class separated into 2 groups, me group and cs group accidently- jus misunderstanding, should be gone well later this, let not put tis in our heart. wat i wan to mention is, i received a hilarious surprise!!... extremely undefine for me.. i receive bday wish from cs group all, but not my group.. (my group n cs group will eventually back to a whole group sooner, i believe! i have strong faith, facebook is making relationship a mess.) is tat funny? zero wish from my group( from the way i feel), maybe theres some MEgroup wishing me tru facebook, n i forget it, n my hp is also making me losing contacts n msg randomly. another unexpected surprise was, im receiving more bday wish from "others" section which im not too concentrating on to MEgroup. becoz 21st is a very important year for me, 21 might not some special year for you, but for me it is a dif kind of life for me like 100% full punishment based on the federal law of malaysia if i did something wrong, went to casino n start my 1st lost or win bet, at least it is another world tat ned to be stepped on, no one will ever treat u and feed u totally. might jus because of my family situation, i think it was a very important year for me to CHANGE as obama said, else gonna late for bus later on... things are going fast now! not like 70s 80s already.
they bought me a present, tat i shoud be happy to receive it, but comes out to be a big disappointment.. no bday celebration? 我在帮每个人过个美好的sweet21,为什么我没有的？我不是跟ps说过了吗？为什么ps当我耳边风。。。 i hope to get a sweet 21st memories instead of gift that would dissappear sooner later. i will rather throw away the gift. AKY 不是说21很重要的吗？我一直都记得！！为什么我是那个被选中被弃哪位！！！！！！！我不明白！！我不明白！！为什么要逼我讲出来..这样人家会觉得我很 noob。。。
things goes badly in my september week, i pass my regularly failed unit, but i jus never ever imagine i could fail math6!! i kneel down, hand covering my face, tears started coming out. i cried for 15 minutes, No! another year of delay? im trying to hypnotise myself, jus a year of delay, u can work to gain experience for a year, jus pushing the work infront for 1 year earlier. its some sort of internal pressure H=u+pv, U=h-pv.. that no normal ppl can understand. my thick wall started to break apart pushing out anger, disappointment, fuck social!
i really canot cope with so many thing at once,成绩又差，还以为生日可以弥补一下我的成绩，没想到会是这样，我的生日我很高兴！！我只为自己庆祝。在家！不错一下·我姐问我21做么没有出 去？我真的不知道要怎样回答她。。。很好的礼物！！
family the biggest pressure
frens the second biggest pressure
if i were not born to here, i will not giving so much pressure and wasting many money for my family, i started to save energy, always check that only i think is well worth to buy only to buy. i started to see my frens around spending money like drinking water, even eating long chocolate bar a day, but i jus enough for a small biscuits for whole month. my awkward feel started since ps buying album like non stop and freakingly going singapore for another concert. if not my sis bought snsd album for me.. i dont think i will be having snsd poster to stick on my wall. i will think like this, insufficient money, watching from computer everyday also can. Sometimes when my pocket money is empty like couldnt survive for another outing, seriously..bank empty, ..something will jump out infront of me. thats money! not from family... maybe theres some sort of luck? or anything? giving me money to spend but its just enough for normal living. another 2 or more outing will back to starting point again~ so i would say rm50 for a month is acceptable for me.我真的很担心我有没有钱,怕你闷我才陪你去k-wave，可以顺便看看4minute，还好我赚到一点。。看到你想看到找到你要的4minute， 我也替你很高兴！
sudden WILL- more friendship problems is good for building stronger bonds btw frens and fore, i believe more argument could bring us to a better future towards strong ionic bonds by trust force. the problems is.. can we all think like this?
these post might seems to be over specified or over exaggerated by myself..
i could not express the way i like infront of everyone due to some reasons u might stop me, or telling me is not the way u think/ u think wrongly/ y would u think like tis?/r u insane?/ u finding urself too lousy or meaningless?/ u glv?/ wat is ur mind thinking?/tis ppl has too many brains to think rubbish/ he is terified/
again, fuck social!
是我的生日在wrong day 我不怪你们。。。september对我来说永远都不是好日子。我写到这些东西出来，我真的很没有脸见你们。
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